This week I had a great breakthrough about the relationship I have with abundance. I realised that through the immense gratitude I feel for everything I have, I’ve stifled the possibility of more.
To best explain this odd epiphany, I’ve somehow attached greed with wanting more – I have so much already, so how could I possibly want more. So I tell myself to just be grateful for what I have as there are so many with much less.
And I feel that I have to reiterate that I really am grateful for all I have and I do realise that the blessings I enjoy are more than most. I also realise, though, that attaching a negative emotion such as greed to potential further blessings, is limiting the opportunities that will come my way.
Last night I found myself home alone and watched Coach Carter. This is one of my favourite movies as it illustrates so clearly how respect, discipline, tough love and vision along with determination to succeed makes the impossible possible.
What stood out for me last night though, was the scene where the poem, Our Deepest Fear, by Marianne Williamson is recited by one of the troubled young men.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves – who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
The sentence – your playing small does not serve the world – particularly struck a cord – because not only does it not serve the world, it also doesn’t serve you.
The wish I make for myself is this – I allow myself to attract and experience the abundance that the universe so clearly wants for me – I accept this with both hands and an open heart in gratitude – for everything there is, and for everything still to come.